February 10th, 2008 (05:45 pm)
Current Mood: bored
Current Song: Vienna - The Fray
Routine sucks. When is something exciting going to happen? I'm bored with my life. It's all so monotonous. People have been getting on my nerves so easily lately. I can't stand to even look at my English teacher without feeling the need to throttle something. She's just so obnoxious.
My history teacher... I don't even know what his problem is. Must be having a midlife crisis. Or maybe he's going through menopause. Must be something big, because he's being such a freaking spaz.. He gets mad at me and totally lashes out at me, so that I'm really mad at him and completely ignore him... And then at lunch I go to my locker and find that he's put food in my locker to try get back on my good side.
...That's not okay. I don't respect the fact that you can't stand having me mad at you. It's not my fault you can't control yourself and actually think about what you're going to say to me before you say it. You've picked a side, now you stay on that side. I'm not going to forgive you today. I have to be mad at him. I have to let my anger run it's course. I have to get it out, I have to have someone to be mad at for what he's said, and it might as well be him. After all, he's the one who offended me.
My biology teacher is just mental. I swear he can't read. Maybe he has like.. dislexia. He reads annorexia as "ahh-rex-ya." ...Tell me that's not mental. And the last week we were Gram staining.. Well, I was Gram staining, the other three were just kind of observing and keeping track of time for me. Anyways. He got into this big thing about how we weren't focusing because we were laughing a lot.. (Hello, we're girls. Girls tend to laugh quite a bit... Maybe you wouldn't notice though, you SEXIST BEAST) I was like, "Jeeze, chill out, Mr. Greene. Unbunch your man panties. Good Lord." And then Amy tripped over a microscope cord on accident & it fell off the table. Smooth, Amy. He flipped out about that and was like, "You guys aren't getting anything done, you're not paying attention to what you're doing, you're just messing around! Blah blah blah." It's not like she did it on purpose. Not like she gave the microscope a roundhouse kick to the face so it would fall on the floor. Not like she threw it. She freaking tripped. Plus, the microscope was fine, so it's not that big of a deal. And then Amy threw a lighter to another group, which I didn't really think was a good idea at all seeing as Amy + throwing a lighter - aim = problems. Anyway. The girl she threw it to didn't catch it. Go figure. I didn't see what happened, since I was doing the lab like a good student, but I think she knocked over some stuff.. And Mr. Greene started yelling about how we have to be smarter than posts. XD I had a hard time not laughing during that lecture. That was a funny lecture. He's such a spaz. He was like, "PEOPLE. YOU'RE ACTING LIKE BULLS IN A CHINA SHOP."
....Wow! That analogy really helped me understand what the flip you were trying to say.
Plus, I didn't even throw the bloody lighter. I didn't do anything wrong. It was Amy. Every time we got lectured, Amy was to blame. Not kidding. She's so dumb sometimes. I mean seriously. You have to be careful in science, otherwise Mr. Greene's gonna find any reason to lecture you. Genius.
Anyways, there was my biology rant..
I don't think there are any other classes I need to whine about....
Oh, but I have to do some complaining about all these emo kids in my life!
Adam-
Break up with Lucas. Get a new best friend. Stop caring what people think about you. Stop crying because you don't get to see me every day. Stop acting like you have it so rough. Stop acting like school is hell. You can rise above it, you just chose not to. Because you have to have something wrong with you, don't you? You have to complain about something. You always have to be abused. Poor, poor, mistreated Adam.
No. You can suck it up, seriously. I'm tired you making me feel like I have to make it better all the time. I can't make it better if you don't seriously want it to be better. You say you have no friends just so that I'll tell you I love you and I'm here for you. Well guess what? It's time to stop now. I'm not going to hold your hand anymore. You're a boy, yet you act like a girl. You whine like a girl. And you wonder why people call you gay? Have you seen how you live? Have you seen how you whine?
Zach-
Having a girlfriend is not gonna solve all your issues, kid. Especially having -me- as a girlfriend. So please, do yourself a favor and stop thinking you have a chance with me, because you don't. You never will. Stop asking me why I won't go out with you. I've told you a million times. You're annoying, clingy, stalker-ish, and worst of all, emo for no apparent reason other than you like people hugging you and telling you they love you. Not attractive at all. I'm done playing games. I gave you a crapload of advice, I told you that I was there for you and wanted you to be happy, and what did you do? You threw it back in my face. I was trying to be friendly and make it better and you rejected it.
Listen up, emo kid. My kindess is in very short supply. It's not to be wasted, do you understand? I was nice to you and you threw it back at me. That's not okay with me. That's a freaking waste of kindess that I don't have much of, comprende? So you lost your chance. I'm done being nice to you. I'm done telling you that you'll be okay. I'm done caring. You don't deserve it, you ungrateful little... fiend.
Maybe you won't be okay. I don't really plan on sticking around to find out.
Calebbbb [:
This isn't my fault. This can't always be my fault. I'm not taking the blame anymore. I'm not going to let you put this all on me. I am not the only bad guy here. This isn't all me. And what the flip do you mean I never message you? Do you really wanna go there with me? Do you?
Because I can go back to my YIM message history and see how many times you were actually interested in conversation when I started it. I don't really even have to, because I know that you never once showed interest. But if you want proof, I have it, baby.
So, I guess there were only three emo people. Only three came to mind, anyway.
There they are. Now everyone can read and see how dramatic I get when I'm angry.
^^
I'm starting to feel that whole disconnect thing starting up again. I don't feel like I know anybody anymore. I feel like everyone's changing, and I'm still the same. I'm still the 16 year old who can't drive and who has no life. That's me. That about sums me up right there.
I'm starting to push most people away again. I just.. Need space. I want company, but I need space. I don't understand myself. Sometimes I feel like I have it all together, like I know it all, like I totally understand myself and everyone around me, but other times I feel like I'm completely new at this game called life.
But at the end of the day, I still love.
I've lost.
But I love.
xxxxx